is this the real life?

so i randomly remembered i have a livejournal and stuff...not sure if anyone really reads it.

mostly its same old same old.

i would post more if i knew anyone actually saw this stuff.

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yearbooks tomorrow,looking forward to it i think. it sort of makes me wonder who is going to sign it though...?

i can't believe that the year is coming to and end. it still doesn't really feel like the end though...like the fact that we only have 3 weeks isn't really that real. i mean its exciting and i'm ready to move on with my life, don't get me wrong. but its sort of weird, to think that these people that i've gone to school with for the last 7 years are going to be gone and not around. i don't have that many 'bestest friends' there anymore but still...well..it makes sense in my brain anyways.

i think it'll hit me when i put on my robe..cause at this point it still feels like i have a long way to go.

happy birthday to me...

the big one eight.

i want this dress so bad. so so so bad.

happy new year kids, its all for us :)

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Merry Christmas kids.
or if that doesn't pertain
happy brick-in-the-wall ;)

i am officially a hokie!!!!!!!!!!

alrighty so i'm going for sort of a rant...aimed at a few people...probably not you [you being anyone who is reading this].


i find this difficult to understand. these people i have known since august in my english class (nova). people that would normally not be a part of my normal day. people that i would normally never talk to. kids that might have made some poor or maybe even bad decisions...the kids that i don't even know exist at dhs. and yet...despite all of that, i find these kids so much easier to talk to. easier then talking to people i've known for years and years. it makes no sense. i feel like i can be myself around them. at dhs i'm always analyzing everything i say before i say it. cause i don't want to sound dumb or something like that. and i feel like i've kind have been...i don't really know if this is the best word for it...but rejected at dominion. for example today, during physics, i'm not exagerating no one talked to me the whole time. i know that it goes both ways...i can instigate conversation, but i just don't really feel like anyone really notices me anymore or wants to talk to me. did i turn invisable overnight? i disappeared for about two weeks and three people noticed? i mean...come on. i've known these people for at least three years. i had hung out with these people for the last two years...and nothing.

maybe i'm looking to far into this. maybe its all in my mind and no one else is seeing this. excuse the rant...thanks for listening.

i don't remember how to cut this down....so its long. :)

you know the drill. i love these things.
1.) How am I feeling today?
"use me" - bill withers.

2.) Where will I get married?
"beautiful" - moby.

3.) What is my best friend's theme song?
"i want to break free" - queen.

4.) What is/was high school like?
"he's a tramp" - the beu sisters (disney mania).

5.) What is the best thing about me?
"think of me" - andrew lloyed Webber.

6.) How is today going to be?
"get off my cloud" - the rolling stones.

7.) What is in store for this weekend?
"nothing better" - the postal service.

8.) What song describes my parents?
'it ant easy" - davide bowie.

9.) How is my life going?
"make everyone happy" - modest mouse.

10.) What song will they play at my funeral?
"must get out" - maroon 5.

11.) How does the world see me?
"ain't no good" - cake.

12.) What do my friends really think of me?
"big generator" - yes.

13.) Do people secretly lust after me?
"where are you?" - saves the day.

14.) How can I make myself happy?
"hello, goodbye" - the beatles.

15.) What should I do with my life?
"clark gable"- the postal service.

16.) Will I ever have children?
"yours is no disgrace" - yes.

17.) What is some good advice?
"new slang" - the shins.

18.) What do I think my current theme song is?
"goin' on" - the flaming lips.

19.) What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
"i like dirt" - red hot chili peppers.

20.) What type of men/women do you like?
"mice eat chease" - modest mouse...?haha.

21.) Will you get married?
"the new style" - the beastie boys.

22.) What should I do with my love life?
"daria" - cake.

23.) What's sex like?
"why i don't believe in god" - everclear.

24.) Where will you live?
"i bombed korea" - cake.

25.) What will your dying words be?
"living is simple" - switchfoot (irony).

26.) How's your day going so far?
"take it or leave it" - jet (i agree).

27.) How's your love life?
"grey ice water" - modest mouse.

28.) What is your life long dream?
"stay away" - rooney.

29.) What's the most daring thing you've done?
"the longest time" - billy joel.

30.) What did you think of this quiz?
"funny honey" - chicago.

finished harry potter. i liked it.

been working but not nearly enough. i'm never going to be able to afford a car :(...what shall i ever do?

tried to learn how to drive the green car today (clutch)...i freaked out...it kept stalling on me. i didn't know what to do. ::sigh::

really bored lately, or lonely you might say.

this is kind of sad. but i kind of wish summer was over, just so i would have something to do.

i'm pretty sure i officially have no life. blah. this sucks.

i'm so bored all the time.

so i'm doing a lot better. no break downs. i got a job, i now work at robeks. i'm 3 days from being able to drive by myself. the past still sucks, but i'm moving on slowly but surely. cause there is nothing i can do about it.

so i'm doing better. not completly better, it still hurts. but thats to be expected. i told him off, i got a better explenation (kind of). i guess thats all i can really ask for. and now its just time to deal with it.

lots of free time this summer. call me if you want to share some of this blank time with me. you know the number.

so this birthday wasn't really the best. jenna's presents are the only ones that didn't break or that i have to return.

ian gave me a necklace, but it broke on the way to longwood on sunday. so i have to get it fixed or have ian return it when he gets home.

my parents got me some nice earrings, but i can't wear them because of the partial rip in my ear. so i guess i have to return them.


this birthday has kind of sucked.

happy birthday to me.

the big 1-7.

go me.